I promise that I meant to write here last night. ^^

Things are -definately- starting to come together for when I go up to Indiana. We've set the date as September 13th. I'll arrive late on the 12th and have to leave on the 14th. We'll be walking around the mall, playing putt-putt ... and perhaps going to a movie or visiting a museum or visiting the zoo. So anyway, I'm about ready to jump outta my skin in excitement. ^^

And her mom said I'm a really nice kid. O.o

So anyway, I'm sitting here listening to the Eagles, and doing my very bestest not to panic. ^^ The good news is that the Eagles sang a lot of songs like "Take it Easy" and "Peaceful, Easy Feeling" ... so I've got something to soothe my nervousness. But alas, 'tis time for bed. Got homework and stuff to do this weekend, as well as finish hashing out my plans for Indy-state.

Man, I am walking on clouds!!

Last night, a person who has been mentioned in this blog at least a half a dozen times told me that her mom would definately allow us to get together when I go up to Indiana next month. So we're hashing together all sorts of plans that we could do together. It's SO much fun!! I think it's been a long, long time since I've ever been so happy. ^^

All in all, a good day. As you can guess, my mind has been wandering a LOT today. Even more so than usual. And even more directed to a female than usual.

I think I'm coming a bit more to grips with this whole situation I've gotten myself thrusted into. It's very interesting, a little more than slightly odd ... but it's okay. I can cope with that.

I gotta focus more on my studies. ^^

... on that note, tchao for now!!

The good thing about having a blog is that you can unload all your annoying little feelings in one fell blow and publicize it to the world with very little chance of anyone actually ever reading it; minus, of course, one person. Which really isn't that bad, because only good has come from this one person reading stuff that was freely displayed and yet they were never supposed to actually read. So far. ^^

And, while we're on the topic of this one person ... boy, can this person make you feel better. I talked with her for just a few minutes and wow, it feels like a weight's lifted off my shoulders. I feel so much better about -everything- after talking to her ... it's ... incredible, in a way.

Kinda disturbing in another. ^^

Today, for an odd reason, is a lot better than yesterday. I'm not sure why. Today's weather and general atmosphere would've been more conducive to that whole massive depression-type thing goin' on yesterday ... but it didn't really fit! Oh well!!

It rained a lot today. A -LOT-. I was driving home from school with my windshield wipers going full blast and I could barely see ten feet in front of me. The traffic lights weren't working. I was one of the last cars to make it under the highway before the bridge-thing flooded out. I was about five feet behind the car in front of me, who was about five feet behind the car in front of him, who was about five feet behind the car in front of him ... all because we couldn't see the road in the midst of this typhoon they call "some rain." We were driving 10 mph down Valley Creek Trail! Kinda crazy. The power was out for almost two hours at my house, judging as best as I can from my own meager time-management skillz.

Kinda fun, really. >D

I didn't mention it yet, but I got my Eagle Scout ring. ^^ It's really cool ... I now have my class ring on my right hand and my Eagle Scout ring on my left. ^^ The theory is that the right hand represents my current school, and my left hand will represent my greatest accomplishment to date. ^^ Therefore, college ring goes on right and wedding ring goes on left. Theoretically, of course. I have to overcome some various problems and obstacles before I can get either one of the replacements.

Oh! And this certain person I mentioned earlier seems to think that it's really sexy when I do this "Rawr!" growling thing like Tigger. [shrug] I dunno ... I think she's crazy. But, then again ... I always thought she was crazy!! ^^

So there we have it ... today's not much different than yesterday, but I feel so much better. Maybe I just woke up on the wrong side of the bed or something. Or maybe I just feel better from talking to that certain person for a couple of hours! [shrug] Or perhaps I'm just crazy. I think it's a combination of the last two.

Yay. -.- Look at me. I'm updating like I said I would.

And I'm in a -really- bad mood. I got my AP scores back (and had no idea that they had been found). I got a 2 on the US History and a 3 on the English. Which is, to say the least, slightly depressing. I did, after all, score a 3 on the US History and a 5 on the English practice exams.

Life can be so revolting sometimes!

And my loverly band director, Mr. StuFlo, that idiot, starts chewing me out because I "can't play this piece!" ... while, however, I actually -can- play it; and just fine at that. He shouts at the trumpet section as if we're blithering idiots, and it just angers me oh-so-much. "Andrew! You've been with Jeremy a long time!! Why do you let him show you up so bad!?" Well, you fat stupid Mexican, if you wanted to know -why- it is that he "shows me up," it's because YOU continually screw me over. After all, -I- was ahead of him our entire freshman year! But, since you and Mr. Weisberg have taken an inherent dislike to me, you continually thrust ME on the parts that contain "whole nooote ... whole nooote ... whole nooote ... " whereas HE gets the sixteenth-note runs and chromatic scale works. If you would fricking give me something worth PLAYING, then I might actually improve, rather than get worse. So, Mr. I'm-So-High-And-Mighty, shove that stupid drum stick up your own butt and don't remove it until you feel like not being such a bloody fool.

So now I'm going to sit in my room and listen to sad music until a certain someone comes online. Hopefully she can cheer me up.

I've sworn to do better about updating this thing.

Or, if not sworn, privately hope. ^^

So, my school schedule is partially fixed in a maybe possibly kinda way that really leaves everything open in the air. I'm trying to weasel my way into Statistics and European History and ... I don't know. But the good news is I've made some headway.

Speaking of headway, none was made on AP, so far. So that's still bothering me, to say the least.

No time to play EQ or talk to my friends on it as of late, which kinda brings me down. They're good friends, y'know? Oh, well. I suppose I can tough it out for a few more days.

And you guessed it: Update with Andrew on his crush'n stuff ... That's turning out to actually be, erm ... really interesting. ^^ We're both new to this stuff and, well ... confused! It seems we're falling farther and farther for each other. Not sure if that's good or bad, as I've said before. Life isn't a Meg Ryan movie, there's no "secret love" on the internet that's gonna pop up and be true romance or something like that ... ... is there? Before, I was so certain. Now I'm not.

My best friend Caleb got a girlfriend a few months before the school year ended. He's become hopelessly entangled; or, as a Olivia Newton John song put it "Hopelessly Devoted." He pops up on her doorstep just to give her flowers or something. He's almost completely dropped his friends ... I'm one of the few that have managed to keep up with him. I couldn't believe he could just ... almost abandon his friends in such a manner. Now I can almost see myself doing this; and I value my friends more than my own life. It's rather ... confusing, such thoughts, you know?

I get this feeling deep in the pit of my stomach of millions of butterflies, flying up, almost popping out into my mouth there's so many. It's a feeling that I both love dearly and ... ... can't stand. I don't know if there's a better way to put it. I wish I were behaving like my normal self and not have such a funny feeling going on. Like a light, enjoyable queasiness, if such a thing makes sense. That's the best I can describe it ... a queasy feeling in my stomach that just seems so ... ... pleasurable.

So I'm going to go rumenate now!

Wow, and I felt guilty for not updating this in ten days. Ha, now it's been ... [quickly counts on fingers] A lot. Like almost two months.

So, what's happened? Hella lot. School starts tomorrow. I'm a senior. Good thing? I hope so. Guaranteed? Definately not.

The Advanced Placement people LOST my scores! So I'm royally ticked off. They managed to find my US History score and have sent it in the mail, so hopefully it'll arrive soon. However, they can't find my English score at all, and it's really ticking me off. I was hoping for a 5 on that, and thought I actually stood a chance at it. Then, suddenly, THEY LOST IT. And that really bothers me, especially since one of my best friends was the ONLY PERSON in my school to get a five on the English 3 exam. Me getting a five on this would -definately- boost my self-confidence, and thus I'd really rather prefer to have the score found.

Further note: my school schedule has been royally screwed up. This also ticks me off. I mean, senior year! Things are supposed to go -my- way, not the way of Random Joe the Officerworker! So I'm trying to knock heads together and get stuff to work. But it doesn't seem to be happening. I'll keep you guys updated (hopefull). ^^

Uh ... let's see ... EQ is goin' good. I think I mentioned in June that I switched into a new guild, but not sure. Anyway, the guild is really taking shape. I'm one of the founding members, and a well-respected one, too. I know the game inside and out and can make good strog calls that're definately going to come true, so I've been called on for some help. Unfortunately, I'm really poor in-game so, due to my budget, my armor and weapons aren't very good and cut into my ability to actually perform well in battle. But I can make proper calls and the like easily.

And this is weighing a little heavy on me at the moment, so ... I'll say it here. The girl I happened to mention on my June 10th update read this blogger. And I thought no one did that. So this is ... interesting ... 'cuz she found out I have a crush on her. And she also says "you were right to think I have a crush on you." So I'm in completely unchartered territory. I'm not sure if I should be mapping terrain, befriending the tigers, or running from them. I'm rather ... er ... in a quandry. ^^

Anyways ... that's good enough for now. I'm exhausted and feeling rather ... tired. Go figure. So I'm just gonna post this and precede to feel bad about not updating it for two months. ^^